Performed at The Pocket Theater as part of Sophie Lowenstein’s Passsion Project, October 11, 2014. Many thanks also to Pocket head honcho Clayton Weller and fellow performers Spring Cheng, Brett Love, and Elliott Rose.

Here’s a transcript, courtesy of CastingWords.com:

I started to get interested in feeling in high school. I realized that I could deliberately amp up my confidence in a way that let me ace tests. I found that was a good antidote for my life at home which sucked.

To give you an example, I lived on a farm. One day, we’re putting in the oats. Oats are dusty grain. I’m in the granary and pushing the oats into the corners as it’s being funneled in. I’m choking. I’m gasping. I have allergies and it’s completely overwhelming me. Read more…

EnJoyment

The other day was my birthday (the 9th). A lovely day providing me the opportunity to share the latest model of Feeling Work and its application to facilitating groups, communities, and organizations toward greater degrees of wholeness and thriving.

I’m going to simply insert the handout below, and highlight one small point which I feel is crucial to the entire endeavor. Click on the image to see an enlarged version.

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The Definition of Wholeness

I’ve been using the term “wholeness” for at least 15 years now, and my standard position about the nature of our universe is that it tends indomitably toward wholeness. If we want to have ease in our creations, we need to align with this grand tide. The definition I constructed for the presentation is the most clear I’ve done to this date, and that feels significant. This is a slightly improved wording.

Wholeness is the degree of responsiveness in a system
of each part to every other part, of each part to the whole,
and of the whole to each part.

This is a very workable, useful definition, and helps clarify many concepts in Feeling Work and the new Field Work. It is simple and easy to apply. I’m pleased.

(The image here is EnJoyment, an expression congruent with my enthusiasm in sharing with the group the other day.)

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After finishing the first eight chapters of the New Science of Feeling series on Why Feeling Matters.com, I’ve taken a pause. These first chapters have only grazed the surface of what I’ve discovered. But they establish a good foundation for the work. It’s a good start.

Having these done, I find myself wanting this work to be seen with a longing that is sometimes overwhelming. I am tired of working in isolation, without colleagues, without a professional network or community. I know there is much more work to be done, and rationally I can stay the course. But it’s been such a long time, and I am very hungry for connection and recognition. I want to know that I’m not in an echo chamber of my own making. I want to know that my work will move us all forward, that it will add something to our collective knowledge. I want my call to elicit a response. I want to hear, “Yes.”

This longing has led me to look more widely for possible colleagues. Read more…

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Pi

I met someone recently and my trajectory has been deflected as a result. Maybe deflected isn’t the right word. Maybe my trajectory has become more visible to me. Yes, that’s it.

Her name is Pi, and she’s a figment of my imagination. I created her to serve the writing of my New Science of Feeling series on Why Feeling Matters.com. Almost as soon as she appeared, she took over.

Writing our dialog came easily, along with richly textured interaction. Read more…

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Today I posted my first in The Science of Feeling series on Why Feeling Matters.com. It was fun to write, and I’m super happy with how it turned out. It’s a good start to the series, lays the groundwork for the next step.

Also today I jumped into the forum on the Coursera class, Buddhism and Modern Psychology by Robert Wright. I started a thread about how a true science of feeling has been missing in both Buddhism and psychology, and shared a little bit about what we’re doing to correct that.

Got a couple of thoughtful replies, including one that did a good job describing the problems with a phenomenological approach to the study of consciousness. I took some time responding, and realize I’ll want to address those concerns at WFM and perhaps in the book as well.

The big thing about this Coursera post is that I was super nervous about it. Preparing to write it, I found myself feeling anxious. It seems like such a big task to convey to people what we’re up to, and I was concerned it might turn out to be a fruitless quest in this case. Fortunately, I was able to focus on the task, consider who I was writing for, put things out there as an offering, and respond to the replies with good perspective and openness. It felt good, and seemed like a reasonably solid (small) start to the larger dialogue that’s sure to emerge as we put this work out there in the world.

Fun times!

Image: Liberation, from early 2008.

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Currently I am attempting to write a series of articles for WhyFeelingMatters.com in which I lead the reader through a journey of discovery to establish a new science of feeling. The articles have been more challenging to write than I anticipated.

One of the challenges has to do with my own role as the developer of this science. What was my motivation? What led me to make the choices I made? How can I best explain the setup to this work in my own life?

So I’ve been revisiting everything from birth to the present, looking again at the forces that shaped me and led to this work. It’s an interesting process, and I realize I haven’t done a full inventory of my life for quite some time. In the absence of a recent survey, what I have are previously established interpretations that haven’t seen the light of day for quite some time. As usual, I have continued to grow, learn, and evolve, so things look differently now, and I’m doing some catching up. Read more…

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This past week has been a good one. Now the technical website stuff is mostly handled, I’ve been able to pour myself into the real work of writing. It hasn’t been easy, but progress is steady and I’m enjoying what Spring and I are creating.

Our collaboration is a thing of beauty. For one thing, Spring’s insight and intellect often cause me to catch my breath in humility and gratitude. How did I get so lucky to have this woman as my partner? For another, I’ve come a long way in being open to someone else’s contributions. When she tells me my first few paragraphs are abstract, or unnecessary, I actually listen. I trust her judgment, and so I bring her perspective into whatever I do.

As a result, things are flying along. We are digging in to define our territory, and doing a pretty good job of it so far. For my part, I’m laying out the foundation for what could become a science of feeling.

Here’s where it gets tricky. Read more…

Peeved

It’s a new world for me.

The past few days I became somewhat agitated, edgy, irritable. Yesterday it got strong enough that I knew it needed my attention.

Upon first look, I could see the feeling had to do with recently taking almost all of my time getting a couple of websites set up, (and closing others down). I do the technical work to create a web presence for my work. Always have. And I’ve always resisted it.

I don’t like to do technical work. I don’t like messing with WordPress themes, (or Drupal, or Ning, or any of them). I don’t enjoy hacking css, html, php and javascript. So I do it as little as possible, just enough to get the job done in the moment.

What that means is that I’m perpetually in beginner mode. I know enough to be able to figure out how to do something. But I don’t do it consistently enough to really learn the skill. So every time, it’s figure it out, hack it out, grind it out. It gets tiring.

I thought that’s what the irritability was about. But it didn’t feel like the whole picture. I didn’t feel any release in that framing of the question. So I asked what else the feeling was trying to tell me. Digging deeper, I recognized a strong sadness beneath the irritability. Read more…

This took me a solid week of work, almost two years ago now. And that was after working on the script off and on for weeks. I still like it, which is kind of nice. So many times, I grow dissatisfied with something I create almost as soon as it’s finished. The book was like that.

I get the feeling the next creation will be more like the video. Strong and durable.

This video was originally posted June 3, 2011 on my old site. I’ve recreated the post here because this page drew people wanting to know more about emotion vs. feeling. If you’d like to learn more about feeling, emotion, and how these play a dominant role in your life whether you want them to or not, please visit WhyFeelingMatters.com.

Here’s the transcript:

I get a lot of questions about the difference between feelings and emotion. And in The New Feeling Psychology, there’s a real distinction between those two, and it’s very important. Read more…